"He placed me in a little cage

Away from gardens fair;

But I must sing the sweetest songs

Because He placed me there.

Not beat my wings against the cage

If it's my Maker's will,

But raise my voice to heaven's gate

And sing the louder still!"

This is such a sweet reminder to my seemingly ever-troubled heart.

From my current life-vantage-point, things look to be quite a mess.
I really never thought it would come to this.
But it has, and now I'm left with so many burning questions that I'd really rather not face.
I recently came to realize, though, that I never really gave this completely over to God.
I mean, I thought I had, but if I was really being truthful with myself, I'd have to admit I was really just trying to figure it out on my own. WHY, I don't know. Especially when I have this amazingly capable, ALL KNOWING, LOVING God who desperately wants to help his child. Why wouldn't I surrender to that? Really, I think there's a small part of me that was (and is), quite frankly, terrified to face whatever it is He might in store for me. But all realities that I face at this point are equally terrifying, so what have I got to lose?

Basically, I need to stop fighting. God wants to do something with me. I'm ready for that next step.
Show me the next step, Lord Jesus.