Monday, February 27, 2012

it's frustrating and a little sad that i don't feel i can voice what i really think about some things for fear of "offending" someone, being perceived as "intolerant", or being told i'm "bashing" a lifestyle or a "right" or whatever.
aren't we supposed to have free speech? but heaven forbid you say something that goes against cultural norms.
do that, and you'll quickly see bullying isn't just a problem our teenagers deal with--it's an infectious disease running rampant all over the map.

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Thursday, February 16, 2012

apparently i am too intimidated to walk, in my gym clothes, through a lobby full of fancy strangers to try to find the gym in this hotel--totally risking walking the wrong way, looking like a fool and having people stare at me. why cant the gym be on a higher floor like most are, rather than the lobby? i think i must have some sort of phobia or anxiety disorder if such a journey intimidates me enough that i just head back up to my room to work out.
if i knew where the gym WAS, it wouldnt be so bad....maybe.

what is this a sign of?
i am so easily intimidated. shy. terrified of being embarrassed or experiencing awkward moments.
is there a pill i can take for this or something?

Sunday, February 12, 2012

‎"No, I don't think I will kiss you, although you need kissing, badly. That's what's wrong with you. You should be kissed and often, and by someone who knows how."

Tonight, I finally watched Gone With the Wind. For someone who loves the classics as much as I do, I'm surprised it's taken me this long--though the fact that it has a run-time of 3hrs and 53mins may have something to do with it.
I really very much enjoyed it this film. I was a bit surprised at how much death there was, though, even for a movie with a major war involved. And the ending was sad--such a cliffhanger! It was like the season finale of a beloved show that never ends up being renewed for additional seasons. But I suppose that's what imaginations are for.

Really, if you haven't seen this movie yet, you should.

Wednesday, February 08, 2012

It's distressing to me how subtly Satan twists the Word, causing people to stray. Just now, some random girls came up to me to try to talk to me about the female image of God, how God also has a bride/wife in heaven (or IS also a bride/woman, or something. It got a little convoluted), making the family paradigm we have here on earth an echo of what is in heaven. I tried to be gracious in my responses but it got a little frustrating. Thank you, God, for the wisdom to respond well, but please open their eyes to the truth of Scripture!

"No one ever comes to Christ through an argument"
it is very hard to allow people to have a wrong perception of you, without trying to justify yourself and prove that perception wrong.
but one of my favorite reminders comes from Amy Carmichael:

"If the praise of others elates me and their blame depresses me; if I cannot rest under misunderstanding without defending myself; if I love to be loved more than to love, to be served more than to serve, then I know nothing of Calvary love."

people will think what they will think. all you have control over is how YOU think. so instead, be so determinedly wrapped up in the Lord that the misunderstanding of yourself by others means nothing to you.

Saturday, February 04, 2012

Words are powerful. Be careful with them.

The words of the reckless pierce like swords, but the tongue of the wise brings healing.
--Proverbs 12:18--

Gracious words are a honeycomb, sweet to the soul and healing to the bones.
--Proverbs 16:24--

The one who has knowledge uses words with restraint, and whoever has understanding is even-tempered.
--Proverbs 17:27--

The words of a gossip are like choice morsels; they go down to the inmost parts.
--Proverbs 18:8--

Anxiety weighs down the heart, but a kind word cheers it up.
--Proverbs 12:25--

A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger.
--Proverbs 15:1--